Archive for March, 2006

The heart overflows, comes out from ur mouth

Thursday, March 30th, 2006

Wut ur heart desires..comes out from ur mouth..so sometimes be careful of wut u say……cos words can kill. Sometimes things u say, u dun mean it..but sometimes it can hurt someone else…and it will be remembered….Things u say in anger, in unhappiness…be careful…coz words r like knives dat can cut thru ur heart ur soul, so choose ur words carefully, dun regret…coz words cant be taken back.Certain things r taboo. Dun say it…the ppl whom u loved the most..r the ppl whom u hurt the most.

Things I’ve heard..I usually pretend it doesnt matter, dat i forgot abt it…dat its juz a joke, but inside me it hurts, it cuts. til today, the wound still stands. I juz pretend dat its not there….but sometimes..sometimes..I’ll rem….sometimes…it hurts all over again.

Into the sweet darkness of the abyss i sink. There i knw not time, know not space, knw not hurt…knwing dat I’m disppearing into the dark brings comfort to my soul.

The old boring weekN

Monday, March 27th, 2006

Haiizzz…another weekend wasted at home…by my choice however..wahah was watching the infamous jewel in the palace korean drama series… Bought the DVD so dat i dun need to sit through it day after day having to be home early juz to catch it. oh well ^^ still havent finish watching even though i think i burnt a hole in my bed sitting on it the whole weekend watching it.

hmm wondering y no1 replying to the SMS email. Everyone leading happening lives mannn…Since when i become such a boreeeee……hmmm…sienzzzzzzz

Work’s been goin dwnhill…dam sienz more and more. Wuts this mannzzz…first hv to deal with dat fellow..at least he’s getting better, now my lovely senior juz decided oh…I’m woke up the wrong side of bed….lets make the whole world feels dat they owe me …esh. BAd mood bad mood la…dun hv to affect everyone rite! She bad mood = anyhw scold ppl think she dam big. Like the whole wide world owes her. Abit of oil stain on shelf, juz becos i happen to walk past, kena scolding I nearly juz screamed at her at the spot…she has mood i dun hv temper la…ppl hv limit ok. Even i bad mood i oso leave the room, do other things keep myself out of other ppl way. She spill everything on the floor, never say anything, manager helped her clean up, oso not even a thank you. Crap rite. Even manager oso say she maria…like its her job to clean up after her. Whole world owes her mann. Went on like this for abt 2 weeks le.

Then today her temper suddenly slightly better, wahhh so nice make tea for everyone…make tea can make up meh? esh. I knw its a nice gesture but i rather she control herself next time when she bad mood. Its not the 1st time le…umpteen of times. USually got My darling bee to help. now…esh.

I’m not a pushover ok. Everyone juz wan to test my limits rite. we’ll see then. I juz cant be bothered to be nice every single day. I hv my moods too as well

Monday, March 27th, 2006

从前有两只小猪,整天过着无忧无虑的生活,
每天主人送來吃的时候,公猪总是让母猪吃,
等她吃饱了才去吃母猪吃剩的食物,每天晚公猪总是给母猪放哨,(看水)
他怕主人乘他们熟睡时把母猪拉出去宰了。

日子一天天的过去,母猪日渐长胖,而公猪则一天天瘦下去。
有一天,公猪突然听见 主人在跟屠夫商量,
要把肥胖的母猪杀了给买掉,公猪伤心至极。

于是从那天起公猪性情大变,
每当主人送吃的来时 公猪总是抢先把食物吃得一干二净,
每天吃后便躺下大睡,並且告诉母猪现在換做她來放哨,
如果他发现她沒放哨的话就再也不理她。

日子一天天过去,母猪觉得公猪越來越不在乎她,
母猪失望了,而公猪还是若无其事的过着安乐日子.

很快一个月过去了,主人帶着屠夫來到猪圈,
他发现一个月前肥肥壯壯的母猪瘦的沒剩下多少肉,
而公猪则长的油光发亮.这时的公猪拼命的奔跑,
想引起主人的注意,表明他是头健康的猪。

终于,屠夫把公猪拖出猪圈的那一刻,
公猪朝着母猪笑着说:“以后別吃这么多!”
母猪伤心欲决,拼命的沖出去,但圈门被主人关上了,
隔着柵欄,母猪看着閃著淚光的公猪。

那晚,母猪望着主人一家开心的吃着猪肉,
母猪伤心的躺倒在以前公豬每天睡的地方,
突然她发现墙上有行字:
(如果爱无法用语言來表达,我原意用生命来证明!)

@(^oo^)@

CMP I MISS U

Wednesday, March 15th, 2006

So happy everyone started to keep in contact …via email….everytime juz click reply all. hahah the emails r juz getting longer and longer,,and everynight juz check email or else too many emails to catch up on. I read 10 emails then forgot the first few.

THough its confusing,but I love it, love the fact dat time doesnt seem to stop our frendship..love dat our CMP days is juz like yesterday like the past few years never happened. i miss those times, miss those guys. The fun, the laughter, the havoc.

Depression

Monday, March 13th, 2006

Today i feel so depressed…I’m so tried and sick of my job…..I duno wut to do..I cried halfway while i was working….

I rily feel like quiting…I really really cant stand dat fellow. He create a mess everywhere he goes…then when i told him, he juz goes orh…then guess wut…a while later does it again?

Then its like my boss is piling so much work on me, and he does nothing, he does his work so slowly, so boss dun ask him to do, in the end i had to do everything, i abit sick of it le. Ever since he joined, i just despair goin to work. I miss Bee. Esh.At least she’s more considerate of others, and not such a As***** . When sometimes we tok abt his mistakes in work, he can pretend not to hear..but MAYBE he juz cant hear..ONly when we practically SHOUT his name then he respond. But when we gossip abt other ppl or wutever, he can hear it no matter how soft.

Then he always like to add spice in everything, we can tok abt soemthing, then he juz add in ARGH!~ total……..graduate from NUS, SO WUT!~ pathetic.

Graduate big ar, in the end dunno how to do everything, like mama’s boy, hv to clean up after him. 1st day come to work ask me make tea for him, when i say nxt time he make,…he says dunno how wor…tea worrrrrr…juz add tea packet, sugar n water in only..dunno how.

when he break things, in the end i hv to clean up after him, he broke a big bottle of acid i had prepared…IN THE END, i hv to mop up after him, He so dumb to throw the broken glass pieces into a empty trash bag..pls lor the glass cn cut the bag then cut the cleaners as well. Then I hv to prepare dat acid solution again in a rush, then u knw he had the nerve to tell me, eh tell me if u need help. Not a single sorry or thank you. Like i need to solution, he’s the one who needs it urgently not me. Bloody B******

Then i tell u, when i break tings accidentally, he can sit behind and juz totally pretend nothing happen.Not even a r u ok? or get broom.

. So wut if he’s higher position than me, true his pay higher than me, so wut….he doesnt even fulfil wut someone of his position is supposed to do…..he;s supposed to oso answer calls and tok to clients, in the end? he dun even dare to tok to other ppl, then he can go somewhere come back and say eh dat gal sitting on the 3rd row pretty lehz….ask u hand in report not see gals…

Sick sick sick of all this crap, juz leave them all to be, not as if i cant get another job. If she gona confirm him, i will leave

Jobs

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

hmmmmmm comtemplating of quiting my job soon….its great, my boss and colleagues r awesome..i get to bully my boss ard…how many ppl get to do dat. =p. but then…maybe its time to move on….haiiizzz…see hw bah. feel abit stagnanted….hmmm…

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

一个朋友告诉我,他哭了,为了一个女孩。

“你一定很爱很爱她吧。”

“是爱到不知道怎么办才好。”

“是吗?”

“男孩在你面前哭说明他已经快要窒息了,如果你拉住他的手,他真的可以陪你走完一生;如果你放弃了他,他会很难再回到以前的自己。”

他的话音刚落,我心中突然很压抑……想到了他——那个曾经为我哭泣的男孩。

第一次,我决定离开他。他对我说,只要我幸福。我看见他强忍着泪水,我知道,转身时,他哭了。

第二次,我告诉他,我欺骗了他。他告诉我,会原谅我,因为他爱我。他抱着我哭了,我知道他一定很失望。

第三次,情人节。他紧紧地抱着我,对我说,不要离开他。他不让我看他的脸,我知道他哭了。最终,是他选择了离开。我知道,他是对我感到绝望了。也许是我错的太多,一切都无法挽回。我,也选择了离开。离开这个城市,逃避这里的一切。电话里,他哭泣着哀求我留下,但我却毅然决定离开。他哭了,也是最后一次为我哭……

如今,我们都变了。他变了,变得陌生,过去,对他而言,也许只是很傻。我变了,变得麻木,过去,对我而言,也许只是遗憾。

过去我的任性,曾无数次伤害了他。现在的他,已不会像过去那样对感情认真。我知道,一切都已改变。如果,一切可以重新来过,我一定不会离开。不会离开值得一辈子去爱的人。

男孩,不轻易哭泣,只有面对最爱的人时,才会变得脆弱。

男孩,不轻易哭泣,只有在太爱你的时候,才会放下自尊。

女孩,如果有个男孩为你哭,请拉住他的手,他真的可以陪你走完一生。

女孩,如果有个男孩为你哭,请不要放弃他,也许一个选择会毁掉一个人…… 

Lies

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

There r many kinds of lies, white lies, deceptive lies, malicious lies..etc etc etc..do not saying out the truth esp something impt since no1 ask oso consitute as a lie?

I dunno. Wut u think? Some ppl wuld say yes, some say no since its still hiding the truth.

White lies, are usually to prevent dat particular person from being hurt, angry and feeling all sorts of negative feelings bah.But sometimes, when its being discovered…esp when the person is not being told and instead found out by him/herself, imagine the hurt and the distrust. Sometimes by not wanting to hurt the person, u r actually hurting the person 10X more. But life is like dat, u hv to bear the consequences of ur actions, if u r lucky dat person will never find out. U hv to learn as u go along, the consequences determines ur future actions bah. mainly guesswork and hopefulness.

Hiding the truth, when the person finds out him/herself, he/she will think dat u hv more to hide. maybe?….dunno…its up to individuals to decide.

My advice? b4 taking the next step, think of the possiblities and consequences…r u able to bear it? The worst scenario wuld be the person totally cutting u out from his/her life bah….

Wedding

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

Marcus is getting married, actually i knw the news like a few days le, Emi messaged me…thax gal. =)

Wow, he’s the 1st among us, wun be the last bah..of the 2nd period gang. heh. I’m so excited and happy for him. =) to find someone he decides to spend the rest of his life with. How abt u? I knw a few of us hv already found someone….juz dat the time is not rite, and $$ is the main reason bah. ^^.

Dad once told me dat there comes a time when U”ll be invited to tons of wedding, u see one by one ur frens getting married…dats when we’ll all finally drift apart? Then one day, we’ll start receiving notice of funerals……wut the hell am i toking abt this for…but this is life isn’t it? inevitable…but to have someone to walk all the way to the end with u…..at least u r not alone, to hv someone u care and love more deeply than life itself, makes it worth its while…

Long time ago, i wanted to get married at the age of 24, but when the time came, I wasnt prepared…i wasnt ready to give up my freedom, my space, my independence. Dunno, felt stuck and cramped. Life isnt like my dreams or bed of roses. Things dat u wanted it to happen, it might not. Coz when it comes, u r juz not ready. Maybe i wasnt ready to uproot, to tear away wutever i loved here. Maybe one day I’ll be….

Wutever it is, i knw i promised lotsa of ppl dat they will be my kids godparents(oh gawd) pls dun teach them wrong things, wutever it is, I hope the period 2 gang will be my kids’ godparents.Oh and hopefully Mon rems dat she supposed to hv a bedroom reserved for me whereever she goes…=p

Open for business

Thursday, March 2nd, 2006

YEAHHH SIMS 2 OPEN FOR BUSINESS IS OUTTTTT SOOO EXCITING!!!~~~

I just bought it oOoOoOOooOo…but then dam tml friday, hv to work…tempting tempting……*drools*