DiTz DerZ Me

Am losing my mind

wuts the use of asking for me for ideas…

when none r taken…

keep taking and taking and taking

I’m exhausted…

I’m tired…

I juz wan to withdraw……

keep thinking of the same thing..

but becos things keep changing..

i hv to rethink again

and again

and again….

Its like letting a bird fly..

then u shoot it down

y play with me

wuts the use.

no1 bother

no1 cares

any impt events and dates

doesnt matter

since dats so

y shld i let it matter

y shld i let it bother me

The virtual world is my refuge

Where i can let my mind be free..

where my wings can rily spread

without fear of being shot down

U ask y am i always at my pc…

this is y.

where i can let go

where i can be involved..

truly involved

and heard

and listened to…

u hear me…but did u listen….

since no1 bother…

no1 care….

y shld i let dat stress me….

I’ve decided.

y bother.

Stifling….

Mentally exhuasted…..

Keep giving…but no feedback no nothing.

In the end, decisions were made without my knowledge…hv to ask thn i knw.

Am i a part of all these?

I dunno.

I dun think so.

Am juz a passerby

Wuts brainstormin..is a sharing of ideas…

But then nothings much to share….

For I’m not receiving any.

My mind is exploding…

with ideas and suggestions..

but who would hear.

Wuts the use.

Feel like a nanny….

Need to be a constant reminder…

My mind longed to take flight.

But yet its trapped

Tied dwn by a long thick chain.

Have to think of ideas…in the end…my ideas dun work..hv to think of solutions….

but who would appreciate

no1 cares.

Maybe i shld be juz brain dead

no1 knws the diff.

There’s 2 kinds of ppl in these world..

Follower and leader..

which r u

"Nothing is lost except the soul"

"An empty shell "

"Like a bird in a gilded cage"

"everything has become a farce"

"of happiness it shld have become"

"yet emptiness is all dat is felt"

"who will hear the tears"

"a path dat was chosen"

"stones and rocks on its way"

"on the verge of collapse"

"will thou see? will thou hear?"

"alone with not a soul"

"one day"

"the tears will dry"

"for there will be no more"

"like an object one day to be given away"

"for no one cares"

I didn’t knw monkey care soooo much abt me ehehehe….

Thx baby..felt alot better.

Been unable to sleep well lately..dunno y keep waking up in the middle of the nite

anywayz…happy happy my baby due nxt week ^_^

have to get so much things done so much things to prepare for its arrival…quite stressful but exciting

happy happy…i hv another soul is which all mine to love and to care for.

Lonely lonely…but at least soon i hv someone

Y bother……dun care anymore..

i spend so much effort researching and checking in the end no1 bothers. sienz le…

wuts the use. juz felt used in the end. Since they dun bother. then wut for i bother. coz me to be heartbroken only. i wun care nor will i give a damn anymore